Today woke up at 11am again... skipped my class coz lazy. Minus mark.
Haiz.. dunno why this days become more lazy then b4. Last time use to wake up early at 7am and sleep early at 12 midnite. But my lifestyle getting worst and I can start to feel my body is weak each day.
The lazyness driving me crazy. I hate this feeling. I want to change this!
If each time you hear your alarm ring and you hand will automatic to get it n put it off.
This already become one of my habit leh... need to change this! What can I do leh? Discipline is the answer. Then it come with motivation to live the day.
Excitement to work and live the brand new day. Give thanks to God for giving me this daily bread. Seek and praise God!!
Lord, help me in this. Little habit like this will effect my whole day. It is so dangerous towards my spiritual life as this drive me to sin against God. Help me to free from temptations.
Many times I given myself excuses that I slept late, so body not fresh lah... need more sleep, actually the cure is not sleep more but to wake up and do exersize, eat my yummy breakfast.
So this is the healthy lifestyle I looking for.
Stop giving myself excuses... it all rubbish!! I live not only bread alone but with God's word who strengthen me each day!!!
So later 7am, Lord help me k. I know you are there to help me when I will be tempted again.
Thank you.
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
Tuesday, October 7, 2008
Serving
Anyway actually I felt quite down during the visiting. Many things start to come to my mind thinking about how had I served in this CF and church. Do I overdo myself with my own strength?
Why I always felt weak whenever I need to go out and serve people around me? Am I over do myself and neglect the time with God?
Talking about this... actually the relationship between God and me quite weak as many times I struggling within myself to let go my old self. Struggling make me felt weak and tired. Many people around me especially bro sis in Christ do encourage me and give support to me whenever I felt down and depressed.
Sometimes I think why people can't just accept who am I? A quiet person, cool and calm. Like to do background work compare to stand in front of people. Another time, should I accept the challenges and trials? Trials that challenges my personality like social with people around me and care for others.
But never the less, what had Jesus Christ taught me is to love. If you find hard to love someone, people around you, try harder. No matter what I need to learn how to love others by loving myself first.
Accept who am I. Knowing who I am. What are my new identity in Christ.
By knowing who I am, only I able to start to accept myself. Accepting myself as children of God.
The important of knowing my true identity in God's eye. People, especially Christians are easily forget who are they really are. That why they always fall into temptations.
Loving your God with all your heart and mind so that the evil one have no chance to tempt you and cause you to sin against God.
Prayer is there for us as a tool to call help to our God.
Lord, I pray that I would learn to accept what God had given me, accept who I am, receive the gifts that God had promised to us, trust in Him, love you by responding to you.
Sorry if I did any wrong to you, please forgive me. Help me to repent and purify me again.
The days I live, I live for you!
The time I have, I have time for you.
The love I received, I giving back to you.
O Lord, thank you for not forsaken me.
Why I always felt weak whenever I need to go out and serve people around me? Am I over do myself and neglect the time with God?
Talking about this... actually the relationship between God and me quite weak as many times I struggling within myself to let go my old self. Struggling make me felt weak and tired. Many people around me especially bro sis in Christ do encourage me and give support to me whenever I felt down and depressed.
Sometimes I think why people can't just accept who am I? A quiet person, cool and calm. Like to do background work compare to stand in front of people. Another time, should I accept the challenges and trials? Trials that challenges my personality like social with people around me and care for others.
But never the less, what had Jesus Christ taught me is to love. If you find hard to love someone, people around you, try harder. No matter what I need to learn how to love others by loving myself first.
Accept who am I. Knowing who I am. What are my new identity in Christ.
By knowing who I am, only I able to start to accept myself. Accepting myself as children of God.
The important of knowing my true identity in God's eye. People, especially Christians are easily forget who are they really are. That why they always fall into temptations.
Loving your God with all your heart and mind so that the evil one have no chance to tempt you and cause you to sin against God.
Prayer is there for us as a tool to call help to our God.
Lord, I pray that I would learn to accept what God had given me, accept who I am, receive the gifts that God had promised to us, trust in Him, love you by responding to you.
Sorry if I did any wrong to you, please forgive me. Help me to repent and purify me again.
The days I live, I live for you!
The time I have, I have time for you.
The love I received, I giving back to you.
O Lord, thank you for not forsaken me.
Tuesday Visiting at Restu
Today visiting was quite fruitful. I went there and I only the guy there and the rest are girls.
Waad leaded us for 2 games tonight. 1st one, cabbage games. It was nice but I got two blank papers. haha... luckly no need to answer any hard questions.
2nd games was to write down the 1st impression on someone you met for the 1st time. Haha..
I got many ppl saying me cool, calm, quite, cute, funny, silent, reserved... haha
Reserved? haha.. This is one of girl comment on me who sitting beside me. We were asked to massage our next person. I was so shy and reluctant to give her a massage. So I end up receive this comment. haha.. very memorable experience.
Hope you guys get something useful tonight.
Waad leaded us for 2 games tonight. 1st one, cabbage games. It was nice but I got two blank papers. haha... luckly no need to answer any hard questions.
2nd games was to write down the 1st impression on someone you met for the 1st time. Haha..
I got many ppl saying me cool, calm, quite, cute, funny, silent, reserved... haha
Reserved? haha.. This is one of girl comment on me who sitting beside me. We were asked to massage our next person. I was so shy and reluctant to give her a massage. So I end up receive this comment. haha.. very memorable experience.
Hope you guys get something useful tonight.
Bro Marcus
Recently, a brother in Christ named Marcus give me an offer to massage my legs.
Actually I got spring my left leg last week during my basketball games and I did not massage my leg. It becomes worst this few days as I can feel the pain greatly when I put more pressure on my leg.
Thank God, after sharing with bro Marcus about this. He offered to massage my leg. I was so grateful about this. I felt so warm and lovely when he massaging my leg. He reminded me about my father that used to massage my leg when I got spring my leg last time.
Today is already the third time he massaged my leg and my leg felt much better than before.
Give thanks to God for providing such a caring brother around me.
It helps me remind that Jesus teaching to humble down and love each others so that other may know we are his disciple.
Thank you, bro Marcus.
Actually I got spring my left leg last week during my basketball games and I did not massage my leg. It becomes worst this few days as I can feel the pain greatly when I put more pressure on my leg.
Thank God, after sharing with bro Marcus about this. He offered to massage my leg. I was so grateful about this. I felt so warm and lovely when he massaging my leg. He reminded me about my father that used to massage my leg when I got spring my leg last time.
Today is already the third time he massaged my leg and my leg felt much better than before.
Give thanks to God for providing such a caring brother around me.
It helps me remind that Jesus teaching to humble down and love each others so that other may know we are his disciple.
Thank you, bro Marcus.
Choo Wei Dailo.
Choo Wei, start to miss you lah.
Miss your laughing voice... your face. Whenever I see the table in front of me and the view in front of this room where I sat. I start to think back the pictures where you sit and do things.
Quite sien... Felt quite lonely when I work till late at night. I hope someone can accompany me to work so that I not easily felt tired. Whenever I tired, you are there to ask me want a cup of coffee anot. It is so sweat are you.
You are my bro that cares for me, teach me, correct me, and encourage me when ever I'm down.
Thank you so much. I pray we will continue to grow more in our life. Share our life experiences and encounter each other when hardship come.
No matter what happen, I treasure this relationship that I long last hope for. Someone that willing to be my brother or Dailo who have heart for me, to help me to grow in Christ and share wonderful life experiences together.
Thank you, Dailo.
Miss your laughing voice... your face. Whenever I see the table in front of me and the view in front of this room where I sat. I start to think back the pictures where you sit and do things.
Quite sien... Felt quite lonely when I work till late at night. I hope someone can accompany me to work so that I not easily felt tired. Whenever I tired, you are there to ask me want a cup of coffee anot. It is so sweat are you.
You are my bro that cares for me, teach me, correct me, and encourage me when ever I'm down.
Thank you so much. I pray we will continue to grow more in our life. Share our life experiences and encounter each other when hardship come.
No matter what happen, I treasure this relationship that I long last hope for. Someone that willing to be my brother or Dailo who have heart for me, to help me to grow in Christ and share wonderful life experiences together.
Thank you, Dailo.
Today - Tuesday
Another 5 minutes will end this day. This morning actually planned to attend " Diskusi" at 1030am. It is a campus event which organized by HEPP, USM. But when I want to wake up, my head start pening... like can't open my eye properly. Haiz... then I continue to sleep back till late afternoon at 12 smth.
Soon after woke up, I felt hungry and then I went to make my lunch for myself. I cooked 3 hotdogs and 1 fried egg with 4 slices of wheat toast breads. Ohya.. with a cup of hot black wheat milk. It was great and tasty.
After that, I washed my cloths, boil water and clean the kithcen since today is my duty. Time flew very fast, I finished all this around 230pm. Then gave myself a break for 2 hours... haha watching Hot Shot episodes 11. It was nice episode and I looking forward next week to download it again. Normally I will watch this drama once a week only every tuesday for this semester.
Then 4pm smth.. I start to online and serach for materials for this coming friday devotion. It is a small group discussion for CF members. I planned to talk about sin and temptation in our daily life- worries. Many times in our life we faces a lot of worries. Worry about study, works, future.
As a student, I usually worries about how to manage my time well because it seems like many things to do within one week. When I go through my planner, Wow... actually there still have a lot of time left.
But never the less, we are human. We need rest in a day. We can't work 24 hours non-stop. We are not machines. So many times I try to fill my times with unnessary things in one day so that I seems like got a lot of things to do especially tiny tiny things, not urgent things. In the end, I can't finish my important things.
Maybe this are the temptation that I facing now and for many students also. It requires high displines and motivation to continue to focus on what are the important things to do within one day. It talks about priorities. In which area are you want to focus and complete as soon as possible. There are the questions that we need to answer to ourselves. If not, days will soon wasted and nothing had achieved.
Priorities really play a important role in our life. If you didn't focus what are your priorities are, then the things we work on will seems meaningless because no objectives had achieved. Therefore start to draft out what are the my priorities for my life, what are the area that I should focus more and work hard in it. Time is limited for us... It is depends how we use the resources we have wisdomly and effectively.
I should change my life attitude by looking onto which are my focos in my life currently. What can I do now?
Ask...
Seek...
and I will find.
Lord Jesus, help me in this. When temptations comes, grant me the strength to overcome it and stand up under it.
When I start worries again.. what can I do? What can I do before I start worry again. How?
Teach me O Lord!
Like writting this blog, is this the things importatnt for me currently? Does it help me in my life?
Does it benefit others? Then how?
Soon after woke up, I felt hungry and then I went to make my lunch for myself. I cooked 3 hotdogs and 1 fried egg with 4 slices of wheat toast breads. Ohya.. with a cup of hot black wheat milk. It was great and tasty.
After that, I washed my cloths, boil water and clean the kithcen since today is my duty. Time flew very fast, I finished all this around 230pm. Then gave myself a break for 2 hours... haha watching Hot Shot episodes 11. It was nice episode and I looking forward next week to download it again. Normally I will watch this drama once a week only every tuesday for this semester.
Then 4pm smth.. I start to online and serach for materials for this coming friday devotion. It is a small group discussion for CF members. I planned to talk about sin and temptation in our daily life- worries. Many times in our life we faces a lot of worries. Worry about study, works, future.
As a student, I usually worries about how to manage my time well because it seems like many things to do within one week. When I go through my planner, Wow... actually there still have a lot of time left.
But never the less, we are human. We need rest in a day. We can't work 24 hours non-stop. We are not machines. So many times I try to fill my times with unnessary things in one day so that I seems like got a lot of things to do especially tiny tiny things, not urgent things. In the end, I can't finish my important things.
Maybe this are the temptation that I facing now and for many students also. It requires high displines and motivation to continue to focus on what are the important things to do within one day. It talks about priorities. In which area are you want to focus and complete as soon as possible. There are the questions that we need to answer to ourselves. If not, days will soon wasted and nothing had achieved.
Priorities really play a important role in our life. If you didn't focus what are your priorities are, then the things we work on will seems meaningless because no objectives had achieved. Therefore start to draft out what are the my priorities for my life, what are the area that I should focus more and work hard in it. Time is limited for us... It is depends how we use the resources we have wisdomly and effectively.
I should change my life attitude by looking onto which are my focos in my life currently. What can I do now?
Ask...
Seek...
and I will find.
Lord Jesus, help me in this. When temptations comes, grant me the strength to overcome it and stand up under it.
When I start worries again.. what can I do? What can I do before I start worry again. How?
Teach me O Lord!
Like writting this blog, is this the things importatnt for me currently? Does it help me in my life?
Does it benefit others? Then how?
Sunday, October 5, 2008
Go Forth with Courage.
2 Peter 1: 1-9
Verse 5 " For this very reason do your best to add goodness to your faith; to your goodness add knowledge; to your knowledge add self control; to your self-control add endurance; to your endurance add godliness; to your godliness add Christian affection; and to your Christian affection add love.
This passage taught me about God's call and choice.
When I become a Christian, accept Christ Jesus as my personal savior. The relationship between God and me began to bond. As a result I being given a new identity thats is children of God.
And God commands us to live a righteous life by following His example. But nevertheless, we still always tempted by the evil devil and sometime we fall under it's trap. This is because God allows it in one condition as mention in 1 Corinthians 10:13, No tempation has seize you except what is common to man. And God is faithful, he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempt, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it.
This is promise that God gave us. Through this passage, I found that God is actually given many things before we ask because he knew what we need most. God's divide power has given us everything we need to live a truly righteouness life through our knowledge of the one who called us to share in his own glory and goodness.
We as Christian, must learn to give thanks for what we have and what God had given us. This is because this presious gift is especially for us in order to help us escape from the destructive lust that is in the world, and we may also come to share the divine nature.
So God taught us that to continue to practive our faith to the every best by adding goodness, to your goodness add knowledge; to your knowledge add self control; to your self-control add endurance; to your endurance add godliness; to your godliness add Christian affection; and to your Christian affection add love.
Try harder to make God's call and his choice of you a permanent experience. We as Christian need to go forth and continue to strengthen our faith in him. Without faith, this precious gift is just like rubbish or foolish things to believe.
So pray harder and try harder be faithful.
For God love the faithful one.
Thank you.
Verse 5 " For this very reason do your best to add goodness to your faith; to your goodness add knowledge; to your knowledge add self control; to your self-control add endurance; to your endurance add godliness; to your godliness add Christian affection; and to your Christian affection add love.
This passage taught me about God's call and choice.
When I become a Christian, accept Christ Jesus as my personal savior. The relationship between God and me began to bond. As a result I being given a new identity thats is children of God.
And God commands us to live a righteous life by following His example. But nevertheless, we still always tempted by the evil devil and sometime we fall under it's trap. This is because God allows it in one condition as mention in 1 Corinthians 10:13, No tempation has seize you except what is common to man. And God is faithful, he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempt, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it.
This is promise that God gave us. Through this passage, I found that God is actually given many things before we ask because he knew what we need most. God's divide power has given us everything we need to live a truly righteouness life through our knowledge of the one who called us to share in his own glory and goodness.
We as Christian, must learn to give thanks for what we have and what God had given us. This is because this presious gift is especially for us in order to help us escape from the destructive lust that is in the world, and we may also come to share the divine nature.
So God taught us that to continue to practive our faith to the every best by adding goodness, to your goodness add knowledge; to your knowledge add self control; to your self-control add endurance; to your endurance add godliness; to your godliness add Christian affection; and to your Christian affection add love.
Try harder to make God's call and his choice of you a permanent experience. We as Christian need to go forth and continue to strengthen our faith in him. Without faith, this precious gift is just like rubbish or foolish things to believe.
So pray harder and try harder be faithful.
For God love the faithful one.
Thank you.
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