Serving

Anyway actually I felt quite down during the visiting. Many things start to come to my mind thinking about how had I served in this CF and church. Do I overdo myself with my own strength?

Why I always felt weak whenever I need to go out and serve people around me? Am I over do myself and neglect the time with God?

Talking about this... actually the relationship between God and me quite weak as many times I struggling within myself to let go my old self. Struggling make me felt weak and tired. Many people around me especially bro sis in Christ do encourage me and give support to me whenever I felt down and depressed.

Sometimes I think why people can't just accept who am I? A quiet person, cool and calm. Like to do background work compare to stand in front of people. Another time, should I accept the challenges and trials? Trials that challenges my personality like social with people around me and care for others.

But never the less, what had Jesus Christ taught me is to love. If you find hard to love someone, people around you, try harder. No matter what I need to learn how to love others by loving myself first.

Accept who am I. Knowing who I am. What are my new identity in Christ.
By knowing who I am, only I able to start to accept myself. Accepting myself as children of God.
The important of knowing my true identity in God's eye. People, especially Christians are easily forget who are they really are. That why they always fall into temptations.

Loving your God with all your heart and mind so that the evil one have no chance to tempt you and cause you to sin against God.
Prayer is there for us as a tool to call help to our God.

Lord, I pray that I would learn to accept what God had given me, accept who I am, receive the gifts that God had promised to us, trust in Him, love you by responding to you.

Sorry if I did any wrong to you, please forgive me. Help me to repent and purify me again.
The days I live, I live for you!
The time I have, I have time for you.
The love I received, I giving back to you.

O Lord, thank you for not forsaken me.